wondering...

I've been sitting here for a long time just searching for Anti-Violence websites thinking what the hell can I do? Not wanting to give too much away about where I live but this boy, a junior at my school, was beaten by a bunch of juveniles & an 18-year-old supposedly over a girl. But this boy needs to have brain surgery because of these beatings. I don't know him personally but it sucks when you live in a small town and something like this happens and you stop and think, "Oh my God. I'm not safe here. Where am I safe?" I've never been uber-religious & I'm not even sure what I believe in, maybe I'm just one of those niave people who believes life should be about kind words and hugs. I don't want to have to look over my shoulder my entire life but I can't live like that. In Sociology, we are studying "deviants" and it's kind of ironic that these guys would actually...do something this damn stupid. But I am looking for a prayer shawl for this boy's mother. I don't even feel safe in my own school, I still have to look over my shoulder. I avoid those people who have been arrested or have been sent to juvy because I'm scared that because they know I'm "weak" that I could be a target. Is it normal to have these feelings or am I just freaking out with paranoia? I don't know what to do...